MIXED INSPIRATION

Floating in a Sea

Lately my life as been just great! So my sister is pregnant! That is awesome! I can't wait to see the little bundle of joy ^_^ I'm going to squeeze her/him and never let her hold em! haha Other than that I have been making new friends! Loving drinking my moscato with strawberries! yumyum...anyways I don't have much to talk about! Have a great day!

FUCK EVERYTHING

I just wondering where people come off with some of the stuff the say?! I mean honestly. Why on earth would you say THAT?! I just am so tired of dealing with other peoples emotions... and letting them put their emotions on ME! I have no idea why I even care less about their idiotic THOUGHTS. None the less, let them shove their emotions on me?! WHAT THE HELL. FUCK EVERYTHING.

Larry's Giant

Went out with my momma yesterday. She wanted to spend her Christmas money! I was so tired from the night before (-_-) but I love spending time with her!

I feel so overwhelmed lately like everyone is in my business! It should get better soon! Anyways my brains in a fog so I can't think of much to say. Take care and have a wonderful day!

Hola

So Nate and I have been broken up since December 13th? It is so strange to comprehend, but I am definitely over that relationship. I don't even know what I want to say right now, mostly I'm just confused. I can't stop thinking about this guy... it is driving me nuts. His name is Josh... he's such a charmer! Give me some advice to get him out of my HEAD! ah

Baby it's cold outside

Christmas is just awesome! Had tons of fun with new and old friends in my life. My grandparents were also down from New York (on my mothers side). I got a lot of clothes and some money! My dad even went out and bought us gifts? He never does this, and they were awesome gifts! He got me an amazing cast iron tea pot <3 a rosemary candle <3 and a lovely tea cup! Tomorrow is New Years Eve and I get to dress up all lovely! Can't wait! Ok blah blah enough talk! Here's some pictures from the webcam and our night out!

me, sister in law, and MOM

my brother

sister and brother

Empty

I can’t stomach this. I wish I could regurgitate this feeling sliding, creeping down my throat, settling cozily, in nothing but an empty space, the size of my fist. How to get it out? How to get it out? It needs to be purged before it begins invading, multiplying cells of destruction, consuming me. Filling me with nothing but empty thoughts, mind numbing, stifling. Am I going to get out of here alive? 

I still choose you

The Civil Wars- Poison & Wine

You only know what I want you to
I know everything you don't want me to
Oh your mouth is poison, your mouth is wine
Oh you think your dreams are the same as mine
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
I always will

I wish you'd hold me when I turn my back
The less I give the more I get back
Oh your hands can heal, your hands can bruise
I don't have a choice but I still choose you
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will 

 I am in love with The Civil Wars right now... they are such an amazing band. Their name is about the different phases in relationships. I have been feeling so uncomfortably blue lately, and this song fits my mood perfectly right now. Us humans think too much, let's stop. We're going to kill ourselves from over thinking... Now how do we achieve this? I'd like to know. I'm so tired of thinking.

We be jammin'

Just got back from the Bahamas this morning. Got in port very early but didn't get off ship til 7 am, and had to take a taxi! My family is so weird sometimes, or should I say my mom... who scheduled a trip to North Carolina with her friends the day we get back to port in Charleston? Now does that make sense? Anyhow so we had an amazing time! We went to Nassau, Freeport and Key West.... I don't really understand the stink about Key West, it wasn't that great, but I also wasn't feeling up to par that day :( Nassau was amazing! We went to Junkanoo beach and actually got in the water! It was freeeeeeeezing BrRrRrrrrr But you're in the Bahamas you kinda have to suck it up! And after 5 minutes of being in the water you can't feel anything so it's all good ;P heh exaggerating over here ^_^ We ate lots of yummy food and the conch was amazing! Everyone I talked to back home that's been to the Bahamas said they've had conch all over in Jamaica and Caribbean, and Bahamas is by far the best! We squeezed juicy limes over their flaky butter battered bodies and dipped them into this amazing tartar sauce! I want to go back now ^_^ CAN I?! PLEASE! The cruise was ok though so rocky and wasn't that great. I'll fly next time to eat more amazing food and not average cruise line food... but that's Carnival Fantasy I suppose? It was still amazing regardless, and I can't complain because I didn't have to cook a thing! So THANK YOU all you amazing chefs, stewards/ess, and all your other fun people that made life easier for a week! Love yall! Now here are some photos of the trip!

No bueno

Ugh not good. Sunday evening at work during my lunch break (4pm) I started to feel really awful... I was really red and blotchy on my neck and chest and fault like major crap. So I went home early around 5:40 after my hour lunch. I always feel bad leaving work or calling out. I have no idea why! If you don't feel good then go home people... it is your body and your health, don't jeopardize it. Anyhow I threw up 8 times between 7-9. Couldn't even hold water down, and twice more between 9-10. I thought that was it but did again at 1am Monday. Needless to say I called out Monday and today (Tuesday) UGH. This bug is kicking my butt! Chicken Bouillon to the rescue. Here are some lovely in bed pictures of death. And picture a day before not a care in the world.

Guys are Peculiar

So... Guys are peculiar creatures... If you don't give them attention... Their ego is crushed, and from there on out they are assholes. This guy Rob who is sweet as PIE all night. Red head.... freckles... (obsessed) has this biggest asshole friend. Maybe because his asshole friend was drunk? So we are playing beer pong and the whole time Rob's friend is being derogatory... making hand gestures next to his cock and he said cunt? Specifically looking at me. I am so livid at this point! Rob is like I know... I think he has had too much to drink and he's rubbing the small of my back. I heart him. So anyhow I leave over by the fire; while I can here the guy saying wow you are an asshole... I throw my beer in the trash and just walk home (2 houses down) I mean really? Just because you couldn't get attention? Pathetic.