Friday, December 30, 2011

Baby it's cold outside

Christmas is just awesome! Had tons of fun with new and old friends in my life. My grandparents were also down from New York (on my mothers side). I got a lot of clothes and some money! My dad even went out and bought us gifts? He never does this, and they were awesome gifts! He got me an amazing cast iron tea pot <3 a rosemary candle <3 and a lovely tea cup! Tomorrow is New Years Eve and I get to dress up all lovely! Can't wait! Ok blah blah enough talk! Here's some pictures from the webcam and our night out!

me, sister in law, and MOM


my brother

sister and brother


Friday, December 23, 2011

Empty


I can’t stomach this. I wish I could regurgitate this feeling sliding, creeping down my throat, settling cozily, in nothing but an empty space, the size of my fist. How to get it out? How to get it out? It needs to be purged before it begins invading, multiplying cells of destruction, consuming me. Filling me with nothing but empty thoughts, mind numbing, stifling. Am I going to get out of here alive? 


Sunday, December 11, 2011

I still choose you


You only know what I want you to
I know everything you don't want me to
Oh your mouth is poison, your mouth is wine
Oh you think your dreams are the same as mine
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
I always will

I wish you'd hold me when I turn my back
The less I give the more I get back
Oh your hands can heal, your hands can bruise
I don't have a choice but I still choose you
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will 

 I am in love with The Civil Wars right now... they are such an amazing band. Their name is about the different phases in relationships. I have been feeling so uncomfortably blue lately, and this song fits my mood perfectly right now. Us humans think too much, let's stop. We're going to kill ourselves from over thinking... Now how do we achieve this? I'd like to know. I'm so tired of thinking.

Friday, December 9, 2011

We be jammin'

Just got back from the Bahamas this morning. Got in port very early but didn't get off ship til 7 am, and had to take a taxi! My family is so weird sometimes, or should I say my mom... who scheduled a trip to North Carolina with her friends the day we get back to port in Charleston? Now does that make sense? Anyhow so we had an amazing time! We went to Nassau, Freeport and Key West.... I don't really understand the stink about Key West, it wasn't that great, but I also wasn't feeling up to par that day :( Nassau was amazing! We went to Junkanoo beach and actually got in the water! It was freeeeeeeezing BrRrRrrrrr But you're in the Bahamas you kinda have to suck it up! And after 5 minutes of being in the water you can't feel anything so it's all good ;P heh exaggerating over here ^_^ We ate lots of yummy food and the conch was amazing! Everyone I talked to back home that's been to the Bahamas said they've had conch all over in Jamaica and Caribbean, and Bahamas is by far the best! We squeezed juicy limes over their flaky butter battered bodies and dipped them into this amazing tartar sauce! I want to go back now ^_^ CAN I?! PLEASE! The cruise was ok though so rocky and wasn't that great. I'll fly next time to eat more amazing food and not average cruise line food... but that's Carnival Fantasy I suppose? It was still amazing regardless, and I can't complain because I didn't have to cook a thing! So THANK YOU all you amazing chefs, stewards/ess, and all your other fun people that made life easier for a week! Love yall! Now here are some photos of the trip!