Baby it's cold outside

Christmas is just awesome! Had tons of fun with new and old friends in my life. My grandparents were also down from New York (on my mothers side). I got a lot of clothes and some money! My dad even went out and bought us gifts? He never does this, and they were awesome gifts! He got me an amazing cast iron tea pot <3 a rosemary candle <3 and a lovely tea cup! Tomorrow is New Years Eve and I get to dress up all lovely! Can't wait! Ok blah blah enough talk! Here's some pictures from the webcam and our night out!

me, sister in law, and MOM

my brother

sister and brother

Empty

I can’t stomach this. I wish I could regurgitate this feeling sliding, creeping down my throat, settling cozily, in nothing but an empty space, the size of my fist. How to get it out? How to get it out? It needs to be purged before it begins invading, multiplying cells of destruction, consuming me. Filling me with nothing but empty thoughts, mind numbing, stifling. Am I going to get out of here alive? 

I still choose you

The Civil Wars- Poison & Wine

You only know what I want you to
I know everything you don't want me to
Oh your mouth is poison, your mouth is wine
Oh you think your dreams are the same as mine
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
I always will

I wish you'd hold me when I turn my back
The less I give the more I get back
Oh your hands can heal, your hands can bruise
I don't have a choice but I still choose you
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
Oh I don't love you but I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will
I always will 

 I am in love with The Civil Wars right now... they are such an amazing band. Their name is about the different phases in relationships. I have been feeling so uncomfortably blue lately, and this song fits my mood perfectly right now. Us humans think too much, let's stop. We're going to kill ourselves from over thinking... Now how do we achieve this? I'd like to know. I'm so tired of thinking.

We be jammin'

Just got back from the Bahamas this morning. Got in port very early but didn't get off ship til 7 am, and had to take a taxi! My family is so weird sometimes, or should I say my mom... who scheduled a trip to North Carolina with her friends the day we get back to port in Charleston? Now does that make sense? Anyhow so we had an amazing time! We went to Nassau, Freeport and Key West.... I don't really understand the stink about Key West, it wasn't that great, but I also wasn't feeling up to par that day :( Nassau was amazing! We went to Junkanoo beach and actually got in the water! It was freeeeeeeezing BrRrRrrrrr But you're in the Bahamas you kinda have to suck it up! And after 5 minutes of being in the water you can't feel anything so it's all good ;P heh exaggerating over here ^_^ We ate lots of yummy food and the conch was amazing! Everyone I talked to back home that's been to the Bahamas said they've had conch all over in Jamaica and Caribbean, and Bahamas is by far the best! We squeezed juicy limes over their flaky butter battered bodies and dipped them into this amazing tartar sauce! I want to go back now ^_^ CAN I?! PLEASE! The cruise was ok though so rocky and wasn't that great. I'll fly next time to eat more amazing food and not average cruise line food... but that's Carnival Fantasy I suppose? It was still amazing regardless, and I can't complain because I didn't have to cook a thing! So THANK YOU all you amazing chefs, stewards/ess, and all your other fun people that made life easier for a week! Love yall! Now here are some photos of the trip!

No bueno

Ugh not good. Sunday evening at work during my lunch break (4pm) I started to feel really awful... I was really red and blotchy on my neck and chest and fault like major crap. So I went home early around 5:40 after my hour lunch. I always feel bad leaving work or calling out. I have no idea why! If you don't feel good then go home people... it is your body and your health, don't jeopardize it. Anyhow I threw up 8 times between 7-9. Couldn't even hold water down, and twice more between 9-10. I thought that was it but did again at 1am Monday. Needless to say I called out Monday and today (Tuesday) UGH. This bug is kicking my butt! Chicken Bouillon to the rescue. Here are some lovely in bed pictures of death. And picture a day before not a care in the world.

Guys are Peculiar

So... Guys are peculiar creatures... If you don't give them attention... Their ego is crushed, and from there on out they are assholes. This guy Rob who is sweet as PIE all night. Red head.... freckles... (obsessed) has this biggest asshole friend. Maybe because his asshole friend was drunk? So we are playing beer pong and the whole time Rob's friend is being derogatory... making hand gestures next to his cock and he said cunt? Specifically looking at me. I am so livid at this point! Rob is like I know... I think he has had too much to drink and he's rubbing the small of my back. I heart him. So anyhow I leave over by the fire; while I can here the guy saying wow you are an asshole... I throw my beer in the trash and just walk home (2 houses down) I mean really? Just because you couldn't get attention? Pathetic.

The Sartorialist

 

The Sartorialist

Love his site! He always finds the most interesting dressed people, and he's right she looks like a living breathing John Singer Sargent painting

IN-OUT

Closing my eyes,

The emotions come flooding.

IN

Ache creeping through me,

Memories fluttering,

Kissing every synapse along the journey.

The most precious memory,

Eyes wide open.

Reaching out to touch

What isn’t there.

OUT

32 degrees

It was my lovely bee's birthday on Thursday so I took her downtown. We ate at the Mellow Mushroom, which basically serves pizza and salads. The best pizza ever. Sigh. My heart was happy <3 Then I took her to Forever 21 and let her pick out some clothes, and we topped the night off with some yummy frozen yogurt from 32 degrees. Then we took random car pictures because that's what bff do (^_^)

p.s. I got my hairdo idea from the military med on Stargate Universe show... BEST SHOW EVER.

sausage fest

So I have been busy working lately! Wait why am I excited about that? (^_^) Last night we went to the BWW (Buffalo Wild Wings) because they were having a beer pong championship... I suck at this game. It's where you line of cups like bowling pins filled with beer (in this case water bc of laws at establishments) and each team (usually 2 people you can solo though) has to land balls in the cups. We won 2 time then lost :( I was playing with my brother who is awesome... he was picking up my slack (^_^) haha Anyhow there was this annoying guy there that thinks being loud and disgusting is a must to distract your opponents. He get saying double ended dicks and making jerking off motions saying his cum is in the cups? It was really hard not to laugh at his ridiculousness! I don't think he'll be allowed to play anymore IDIOT! Anyhow here are some pictures of different days and last night. I need to get better at keeping days separate! I will try this in the future (^_^) Take care lovelies.

Pink Oasis

I am in love with the Versace for H&M. I must have one of these in my closet right now! Preferrable the Yellow Leopard with the Pink Oasis in your tummy (^_^) eeeee And if you aren't fond of all this color there are adorable black pieces that you could enjoy in your closet! They are a little pricey but they look very well made so I think I would splurge on them. I just love the two top dresses ughhhh my heart wants you. Haha ok maybe I'm being a little dramatic, but I know someone understands my needy want (*_*) stares hypnotized.

 

Chill OUT

Me and my friend Rina went around downtown today... where all the "cool" people hang out. It was fun. We had entirely too much to eat! and I discovered these yummy passion fruit bubbles that burst in your mouth... Not sure what they are called but they use them in bubble tea. I am obsessed now. Oh and that in tart yogurt with pecans coconut and the passionfruit bubbles... The greatest thing ever. It is called Yogurt mountain, and it is 45 cents an ounce. They have all these flavors and mix in! I just die it is so good. Then we ate at the King Street Grill, went to Forever 21, ooo and ahhhh at the pretty clothing and went home to be in pain from all the food we ate! See ya ^_~

Pretty things to look at

Such amazing artists and photographers. Here are the things inspiring me lately! Click on the See more to.... see more... yaaa (^_^)

If you click on the picture it will take you to the art or source. All photos taken from Flickr, Tumblr, DeviantArt

Some music while you look by the lovely Sylvie Vartan

I want to wrap myself up in this and never be able to get out! swoons.

Flea Market

Went to the Flea Market Sunday. It was pretty cool... I liked the open Mexican market they had. I have no idea what those green pea looking veggies are! It was bothering me but they are like 5 times the size of peas! We found this cute puppy towards the end, and he was so sweet. I wanted to pick him up and take him home with me. I love big dogs, but he was just so sweet I was falling in love... I had to leave. I was probably scaring people away with my awww, oooo, eeeeeeee you so cute! hahahahaha. Need less to say, I had a good time with the b/f and my friends Krys came along. Oh we also got some pumpkins from in town! yay

Enough Said

There's this thing that happens at night. It is called getting tired, and boy was I tired last night. I told the friends I would go out though so I did.
Going out is so boring sometimes. If you just sit back and watch; you wonder... I hope I never act like that when I'm drunk, but you know you have. Then you have those catty girls. Enough Said. Stop judging and move along. Also everything is 10x better to the heavily intoxicated person, but you can't understand a word they are saying because you yourself are not making your liver work over time. Instead you are making that big mass up there ^^^ hurt because you can't stop being emo, wondering is your life is how you want it. All the while your pillow beckons you. Please- Please lay your head on my soft thread count, and you are so happy to do so.

Wild Thing

I've been doing a lot of hanging out with friends lately. Especially at this wings place called Buffalo Wild Wings! It is so yummy! Theres just something about boneless wings that makes me so excited! With a nice fat tire. Yum. Though I rarely get those bc we always go on 2 dollar vodka night, but it's that nasty house vodka that is so weak tasting... BLEH. Another pictures when here are of childhood friends singing karaoke at a bar called O'lacey's Pub.... and then Me and my lover at this sweet place called Perfectly Frank's where they have crazy combination hotdogs! One is called the Elvis and it has peanut butter bananas and honey I want to say... or something else. lol but I so want to try that one. I've been there 3 times and tried something different each time, and it is all amazing. They also have these sweet potato fries covered in blue cheese and drizzled with honey... I mean EXPLOSION in your mouth. AHHHHHH anyhow pictures time (^_^)

Patterned silk

I got this shirt a while back at the thrift store, and hadn't worn it yet! So I decided to when I went out with my mom and brother the other day. LOVE THEM <3 It is silk and so comfy <3 I wore it with some skinny beige cords, black Forever21 combat boots, thrifted leather animal print purse, and crystal crocodile earrings. I also got a set of 4 colored slap wrist watches before we went out! This is us eating at a restaurant food chain... it isn't that bad. It's called O'Charley's, a little more upscale from your normal american food chain restaurant... but my salmon was amazing! As well as my potato (^_^) 

p.s. I took off that giant glob of hydrogenated butter, and my arteries thanked me (^_~)

I Don't Want To Come Back Down From This Cloud

We decided to walk around... this is the out come

No Cars Go Where We Know

No Cars Go Where We Know by hannahmariaa featuring a ruched pencil skirt